Current mood:	aggravated
Current music:	Asshole - artist unknown

Cramping my style.
.. Got ahold of plaid.. so he knows.. and he's excited too.. and Carpe knows.. so.. all is well.. so it's set..

I had a wonderful day.. spent all day with Ray.. the guy I mentioned I'd be going out with.. we watched a couple DVD's.. then went for dinner, then for a walk.. it was wonderful.. I was so happy in the moment..

Anyway.. the roomie is really fucking cramping my style. I couldn't work tonight.. because I had no money for a cab and couldnt get to a place for an incall.. and i needed the place for tomorrow.. but the fucking roomie is going to be home all day tomorrow.. and that means I can't work.. so I'm losing a whole fuck of alot of money.. fucking hell.. I can't believe this. and I need money to get the things I need for my trip.. FUCKING HELL. This is so upsetting. then, what does she do the minute i get home? she asks to go on the computer. I hadnt been on it all fucking day. turns out she has the day off tomorrow and wanted to be on it all bloody night. uh. no way. she just got done watching her movie and she'll want the comp now. jesus. I hate this. fuck fuck fuck. I need to make money. bloody hell. she's so cramping my fucking style. I had a great night, and I WAS happy, but I'm not NOW.

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Just my thought

(Anonymous)
2003-05-29 07:35 pm UTC (link)

First of all, I like your site ( I am a web designer myself ). You must have spent a lot of time on this. I am impressed with overall content except a few things.

Second, after reading your story, I think:

1. Your statment " The world would not change without me" applies to most of the people.

2. A lotssssssssss of people are lonely. Very few people have a lot of real, great friends.

3. Stop drinking, popping pills, going out at night too often, then you would avoid most of the bad experiences I have had before.

4. Don't commit yourself too soon into a relationship. Take time and observe the person. Easy come..easy go.

5. You are a sweet girl. Don't underestimate yourself.

6. Don't stay up at night all the time. It helps your health.

7. There are bad experineces in your life, but some are not your fault, don't blame yourself.

bathinggrape@yahoo.com

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Re: Just my thought

aara
2003-05-30 01:30 am UTC (link)

I know that I am not alone in feeling the way I do. I know I am not the only person in the universe.

Also, I stopped drinking and popping pills ages ago. I have also stopped committing. All relationships I have are open. even the one with moondog was. I have been sleeping at normal hours lately. I also do realise that staying up all night all the time is not healthy. I'm not stupid. Another thing, I do not go out all the time, in fact I rarely do.

Thanks for your input.

-Aara

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